On no longer Doing the Most

I have so many things I want to write:

  • A book
  • A stage musical
  • Poetry
  • A comic series
  • TV pilots
  • Films

I have a lot of stories in me. It’s who I am. I have the unnecessary super power of being able to come up with an idea at the drop of a hat.

This power results in me wanting to do the most and have 13 WIPs. I have not seen Hamilton but the idea of writing like you are running out of time is something that I can empathize with. I do feel like I am running out of time to do these ideas.

It’s like a bubbling of words that just want to pour out of my mouth.

This urgency is a recipe for Doing the Most because for me it came down to two feelings: A fear of scarcity and a lack of priorities.

This past year was slow. Days felt like weeks and March felt like 100 years. This slowdown stopped my tendency to want to do everything. I felt like I had time – almost too much of it.

I ended up spending most of 2020 just taking life one day at a time. I didn’t stop making goals but they got softer and spread out. I realized I didn’t have to do a big project in a month. I could take three months or even six.

It was great. If I wanted to do more in a day, I could but if I skipped a day, the timeline was thrown completely off track. I had time and I could enjoy it.

I could enjoy life. I could try new things. I got a switch. I started painting and reading more and watching truly dumb reality TV because I had time.

And when I stepped away, the ideas didn’t walk off. My script was waiting for me to come back and stare at its blinking cursor. In fact, I was able to work better.

The scarcity I was fearing was a myth and I had the power to slow down a bit.

I truly invite everyone into the Slow Down Hive. It’s great here: smells like your favorite sweet treat and they only play bops.

I feel healthier than I was in 2019 and way more rested. 2021 MK is not trying to cram 96 things in one day and I love it for her.

I’ve learned that there will be time to tell all the stories I want to and if there isn’t, then maybe I wasn’t supposed to tell them.

In the 2006 film Talladega Nights: The Ballad of Ricky Bobby, there is a throw away line that I love. I do not remember what scene it is from but I tend to quote it as a joke to my mom for a laugh or to myself when I am starting too many things at one time.

Ricky, played by Will Ferrell, and Cal, played by John C. Reilly have the following exchange:

Ricky: You can't have two number ones.
Cal: Yeah, you can't. That makes eleven.

Now who knew that I would find enlightenment through an Adam McKay comedy but I did because you cannot have two number ones.

You can’t have two things be the main priority.

Something has to be Number One.

A simple and important lesson that I have finally learned.

Right now, my script for my directorial debut is number one. Everything else is going to have to wait.


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